I am not sure things can change
Let’s make a test: raise your arm! put it down again!
You have some form of control over your physical body right?
What about your mind? Can you change an emotional pattern in your mind? The trick is to find the key to unlock and give yourself the power.
How much did you know about mathematics when you were born? How much do you know? What happened? How did you learn what you know? Training, developing new skills.
For me, you are fine as you are. I have total respect for you, no matter what you feel inside. I accept you the way you are.
You are the one in charge. You are in power and the decision is yours.